Jah Guidance

I am a natural mystic who used to try to control the flow of the river of life but learned early on there is no such thing as 'control'; this is a Babylon term. In fact, the more I learned to let go of control, the greater the blessings that graced my life. Under the concept of 'planning & controlling' my future, I visualized, meditated upon manifesting certain events into my life, kept my unerring focus on the ball, but ultimately, this was all an illusion. Even though every single thing I set my mind and attention upon was realized into the physical, this is all I received. Then one day, I began focusing on a particularly calm, gentle and loving energy within my heart. I felt it during certain meditations and began to seek it out and keep my mind focused on it. The path back to this place became easier and easier to find with each subsequent meditation. In the next evolution or spirit shift, this place presented itself as a conscious, living entity: it is Jah! The first words that emanated from this centre of my heart was: "I Am". When I finally discerned these words, I knew immediately I had found the doorway to Jah within my heart; all humans are so blessed!

For the next 7 years, I struggled for control over my life all the while communing daily with Jah to ask that my soul purpose be manifest in this physical reality. Little did I know that my actions and my prayers were cancelling each other out. I often wondered why Jah seemed to be asking me to release all that I had built but then convinced myself that I was confusing the guidance I was receiving and that I should stay on my path. It wasn't really working for me so about 2 years ago, I endeavoured to release all control and let Jah guide my life. As a result, many people left my life, and circumstances aligned themselves to force me to shut down my business, which until that point had been, teaching post-rehabilitation exercise and meditation. Now, as I neared the conclusion of my 7-year-long prayer to Jah to guide my life and make my soul purpose manifest, I began to hear, "Release all expectations now!" I was confused! "What expectations?", I thought!!!

For the next 3 months, I was told by several different people that I should sing. The image of a workshop I participated in 7 years earlier kept coming to mind; in this experience, I came to learn that my main animal spirit guide for this life is Canary, the singer, and that I was born into the Crow clan; flight and song were very familiar energies in my heart. By now, I had figured out how Jah speaks to me; always, through images of past events, images of unknown events to me, songs and other voices in my head that have risen up from my heart, and pulses of warm energies such as love, joy, grace, gratitude, harmony and so on. I put all these clues together to open my mind up to the possibility that I could sing. I talked myself down, "My voice is too weak and fragile.", or, "My voice does not have that quality that will touch many people at once.", or, "I'm too old now to start a new venture." But Jah would not release this demand! "Sing my message now!" Then one day, I was listening to the Phare Riddim version and a voice exploded inside me with clear lyrics! It took me an hour to write them down and another couple of hours to figure out how to get that voice from my head into my throat!. It finally came but was very challenging; and so my first song "Unity" was written. It was one of the greatest joys I had ever experienced, this downloading of the song from my inner vision into this 3D physicality! Moreover, opening up my mouth and letting my voice escape to fulfill this demand from Jah brought the most powerful feelings of love and release I have ever felt. And so it is!

Now, I work daily at releasing control over my life, keep my focus inside where I hear music all the time, and when the energy is just right, I vocalize what I hear inside and write it down. I have recorded all of these on my computer. The first 12 songs I wrote were recorded acappella as it had not occurred to me to find versions; a DJ friend suggested it, gave me a few and I was off!! From January-February 2007, I a total of 14 songs, recorded them, mixed them to the best of my limited ability, and am now offering them up to the world! I am open to any opportunities or possibilities that relate to singing for the act of singing is what I love. Even as a backup vocalist I feel great joy when I sing.

This is my love in action! This is Jah working through InI!!

Bless up!!